There are many things I have learned since losing Lezlie but, there are a few that stick out.
I will never stop loving her. Ever! It is like this, you love your child still unconditionally while they are hear on earth, and I love mine the same but she is in Heaven. You like to talk about yours, I like to talk about mine. Even though that isn't seen as something that should be done. Well, guess what, it will be done.
I will grieve forever. There is just no way around this, I will never not grieve.
No matter how long it has been, holidays are never any easier. Ever. There are certain holidays Lezlie loved more than others and, those are the hardest to get through. It does not matter who is there or what is done, it isn't easier.
Even though I will grieve forever, that does not mean I don't know happiness or joy. There is also nothing I take for granted anymore. I also know that life is short, shorter for some and you need to spend as much time with your children and family as possible. Love them like there is no tomorrow.
I will forever be a member of this awful club, the child loss club but, I have made friends with some awesome people while in this club. I have made friends that are far more accepting of me than those I thought were my friends but, life happens. I have made friends all over the U.S. and, some countries. Of course, we do wish to have met another way, any other way than this. These are my warrior mom and dad friends. Brave is redefined by these.
Life will never be the same. Life will go on, it may take a little more than normal to keep it moving but, it will move on. One thing to remember is this, I will never get over this and I will never stop loving sweet Lezlie.
Romans 8:18 "Yet what we suffer now is nothing compared to the Glory he will reveal to us later."
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