We have good days and bad days. Sometimes the bad comes too frequently.
I know for a fact we are not expected or, we better not be expected to be all happy go lucky every day. After all, it is hard to be that way when your child is taken. I also do not need to know that they are in a much better place. I do believe we went there before. (You know when we were discussing things people say that they shouldn't?)
But back to the bad days. A bad day to us may not be a bad day to someone else. I mean the normal, late for work, dog jumped on your white pants, left your lunch, your gas is on E bad. I mean I do not feel like talking or looking or dealing with anyone today. I mean no one. I mean bad as in the wrong thing said will light a ticking fuse. Trust me, I am there. Been there a few weeks.
My fear is I will literally lose my mind real soon. I am so tired of the bs that comes along with people period. People not thinking, people that truly are heartless but want to pretend they aren't. people who think they are untouchable, people that believe they are perfect and yet, they aren't. Jesus is the only perfect person. Remember that.
I am honest, maybe too honest and blunt at times when it comes to death. But, one thing I promise you is this, you will know where you stand and if you don't, I will tell you.
Our bad days are not like the normal ones. Our bad days probably start at 1:45 in the morning and happens when we awaken from a nightmare that never ends, the death of our child. Please be weary of this. We don't necessarily mean to be mean but, maybe we do. Really, life has did a 180 on us and our emotions are everywhere at any given moment.
People never really know what to say, it would probably be pretty awesome if they did but, not realistic. Just be there and, if we are having a bad day, listen.
Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that I am God."
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